Shit before sleep
YAY finally I could make it to eat a medium (quite BIG) kinder bueno icecream! I am about to EXPLODE but also my happyness is!
Next thing: tomorrow I’m alone again, le fu. I like having time by myself but enough is enough. Anyways, I’m trying to think what to do tomorrow in order to waste my time wisely, yeah, waste xD I’m going to try and make second Master exercise of this week (which is driving me crazy), I’ll work on my other Master module exercise, I’ll finish some fimo presents I have baked today, I’ll hand over an order aaaaaand hopefully I’ll manage to have time to play something… maybe Pokémon? Maybeeee The Wolf Among Us? Maybe… xbox?
Call me crazy but I feel this Christmas is going to be fine. I’m going to be fine.
Even when I do things I feel like I did nothing at all.
I hate Friday mornings, tha cleening woman comes at 9 and though I’m awake since 7-8 am she disturbes me a lot. I am unconfortable until she goes out of my house.
Thinking about tomorrow morning makes me sick -.-
I found a tutorial and decided to make one for myself
Shit before sleep
I feel mediocre, bad with myself and even though I managed to study some things from the Master, attended the Master’s chat and studied Russian today I feel kind of empty.
I thought I did not give a shit abut what my mother have always said about being mediocre but the truth is I definitely DO. Also, I’m a bit down. I need a long hug, feel calm, relax a bit… but the shitty truth is that nothing from the list is going to happen any time soon. In fact, I have a new week topic from the Master to face, more not-studied Russian, a week of being alone again…
It’s shit before sleep timeee~~!
So I just watched a video in which there was a girl with the perfect body type I’ve been wanting to have since I remember. If I have to be sincere I feel a bit like crap because I’m getting flabby again (I haven’t looked for a new gym yet) bbbbbbbbuuuuuuttttt at the same time I am making some efforts to exercise a bit at home since last week.
I don’t know, the only thing stopping is me. Nike motto makes sense to me now.
I am a very loving person except for the female members of my family. I am not going to say I HATE them but I could live without them. I dislike specially my mother. She is one of the persons that, when she speaks to me, I think “why are you talking to me? I don’t even want you to speak to me!”
And you know what? She is speaking to me all the time.
No wonder why I answer in a bad mood in almost every conversation.
Today’s “shit before sleep” (yeah, I named my things) isssss:
I miss my old me in terms of courage at dressing up. Lately I’m being lazy, afraid and feeling too old for what I want to wear. I’m becoming more and more a fashion sheep and ohhhhhh man that kills me inside I swear…
I think I’m wasting my time again. I want to do a lot of things, even if it’s lose time playing videogames I want to play, studying, doing nothing with my lovely boyfriend… but I want to DO them. I feel like time is running out and I’m just repeating everything everyday.
"I believe I can see the futire, ‘cause I repeat the same routine…"
A person is ringing at the door bell and I’m not opening.
That’s the level of my annoyance: I don’t want to see you people.