Today’s “shit before sleep” (yeah, I named my things) isssss:
I miss my old me in terms of courage at dressing up. Lately I’m being lazy, afraid and feeling too old for what I want to wear. I’m becoming more and more a fashion sheep and ohhhhhh man that kills me inside I swear…
I’m so confused about lolita lately. I love it but I feel like it’s not my style anymore? Maybe I’m more like light lolita or otome or very girly… I don’t know… I am in love with Amo’s style (super girly but kind of sexy) and more alternative/punk shit.
Ah, it’s even worse because the cold weather is not coming. It’s 14 Oct. and we were more than 26ºC yesterday afternoon. It’s crazy! I hate it!
I am so annoyed also because it seems that I am fucking being too attached to people and too worried about people’s concept of me. FOR FUCK SAKE CAN I STOP BEING SUCH AN ASSHOLE AND BE INDEPENDENT AND SEND EVERYBODY FUCK THEIRSELVES?